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To a NICU Mama… Family

It’s been 6 months to the day since we were able to bring Maddie home from the NICU. She was there for 13 days. 13 days wondering if there was another tube in her or if she was hooked up to a different machine. 13 days hoping she would remember to breathe. 13 days wondering if she was going to ever come home.  Maddie’s NICU stay was easily the worst time in my entire life. There were times where I would sob and literally say,” She will never come home.” I lost out on a lot of things new mothers are supposed to experience. I grieved over those losses. There is nothing that hurts more than seeing your child struggle to live and not being able to help. In retrospect, 13 days isn’t very long. There are so many families that spend much more time there and my heart hurts for them. 

If you are a NICU mom, this is for you. If you are newly a NICU mom, I promise that it does get better. Right now, it’s ok to be angry. It’s ok to be sad. It’s ok to cry and it’s ok to scream. You are not alone in those actions and emotions. Eventually, this will be a memory and it will be ok.

I’ve been trying to write something about how it is to be a NICU mom for months  but I could never get out the words in the right way. I decided to abandon what was “right” and just write. Here’s what came out. 

Madalena at 1 day old.

Madalena at 1 day old.

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You are strong.

You may have spent little to no time with your baby. If you were lucky enough to get a minute or two with her, you could tell she was struggling. If you were lucky, the first memory you have of him is his discomfort.

You spent your first night as a mother without your baby. If you were able to take him home from the hospital when you were discharged, you still wondered if he was healthy enough to be home with you. Just know that you are strong and you are enough.

You may have been one of the few who left the hospital a mother without their child. You are a warrior. You battled tears every drive you made to and from the hospital to see your child. You fought back screams every time the doctor said, “She’ll need a feeding tube” or “He’s not quite ready to come home yet.” You held your breath every time a monitor would beep. You prayed that it wasn’t your baby and that, if it was, it was a mistake.

You may have been one of the few who could have crawled into a dark corner and sobbed for hours. You may have done that. But you battled back and you made sure your daughters nursery was ready for her when she came home.

You may have been one that stayed in the hospital with her. Your days and nights were only different because of the light outside. You spent all day look at your baby, looking at her monitor, and looking back at her. You’d tell the nurses you’d sleep only to lie down and stare at the ceiling- fearing the next “ding” would mean your son needed help that you couldn’t provide.

You may have been one of the few whose “it’ll only be a couple of days” turned into “she’ll have to stay for at least one more week.”

Maybe for you that “one more week” turned into “maybe next month” or even “maybe her due date.”

Maybe “maybe her due date” turned into never at all.

Maybe you aren’t even a NICU mama yet – I pray that you never are.

No matter what kind of NICU mama you are, just remember:

You are strong. You are a fighter. And you have so many NICU mamas in your corner.

Madalena at 6 months old.

Madalena at 6 months old.


Meant to Live Life

When you look back at the past few weeks, what kinds of things do you remember? If you could categorize your thoughts, where would they go? Would you put them in the “Memories with the Kids” category? “Date Night with my Spouse”? “Vacation with my Family?”

Or would the majority of your thoughts fall into categories more like these:

  • Budget is a Little Tight
  • I Hate My Job
  • I Ate Terribly/Didn’t Exercise
  • I Gained Weight
  • My Significant Other is Annoying Me
  • My House is a Mess
  • I’m Stressed

If you’re thoughts fall primarily into the latter category, welcome to the club. I can’t tell you how many times I have forgotten all the good things going on in my life because I am wrapped up in how much laundry there is and how I need to change my eating habits to see some weight loss. Shoot, we set ourselves up to thing this way when we make resolutions every year to lose the weight or eat clean. I can look back at 2014 and 2015 and remember thinking “I will be the fittest ever this year!” Neither year produced that for me. I remember that, but I have to think a little harder about the good things (aside from my daughter being born, of course).

It’s so sad how so many of us are focused on all the wrong things. All the time you spend stressing out about things could be spent doing things to alleviate that stress!

Think about it. Stressing about a tight budget isn’t going to help anything. Stressing never gave anyone some extra money in a bank account. Stressing never folded laundry or put away dishes. Stress is toxic.

Research has shown that stress can actually do physical damage to your body. Your body needs stress in certain amounts. It’s what helps pump your blood through your body so you can react appropriately in fight or flight situations. Stress is a good thing. The problem is that we are in a constant state of stress. Constant stress can cause respiratory problems, heart disease, kidney and liver issues, stomach ulcers, and it could even eliminate your ability to react to an emergency all together. Stress can literally kill you. (source).

Aside from the physical harm stress does, stress can kill your relationships. If you look at polls and surveys, stress about money nearly ALWAYS listed as a top reason for divorce. Stressing about how you look can push away friends and significant others for a multitude of reasons as well (I could literally write an entire post on how food and aesthetics can ruin a relationship).

With all of this stress, when are you finding time to actually LIVE? I have an answer for you – You’re NOT. You’re not living. You’re going through the motions and waiting for things to change. Guess what? Things don’t change if you don’t change them.

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I was listening to Switchfoot this morning – The Beautiful Letdown album (yeah, yeah, throwback, I know)- and I think I actually listened to the words for the first time. We were meant to live for so much more than bills/food/weight/annoyances/insertotherstresseshere. We are not here to spend our days stressing about things that we can’t change. If you can change it, then change it. If you can’t, stressing is a waste of your time. It is literally a waste of your LIFE. We were meant to LIVE.

 


I Think We Should Take a Break Fitness

This post is honestly mostly for me to sort out my thoughts, but I know I’m not the only one who’s going through what I’m going through so I thought I’d make it a blog post.

If you’ve been following me on my other social media accounts, you know that my weight loss isn’t exactly going well. Not from my lack of trying, either. I ate at a calorie goal and did well, then it stalled. Then I switched it up and started eating a more plant based diet. GAINED weight. Gave the plant based thing some more time since it can be a big adjustment for your body. Nope. Still a gain. The other day, I mentioned eating based on the IIFYM (If It Fits Your Macros) method and I started logging yesterday and today. Epic failure.

I know what you’re thinking. I couldn’t have possibly seen results from 2 days of IIFYM. You’re right! The reason it was an epic failure was because of how time consuming figuring all that out was. On top of being time consuming, I was started to get irritated at the lack of flexibility there was. Sure, you can eat to fit your macros, but if you don’t have a ton of calories to work with, there is very little flexibility.

That’s when I realized: why the fluff am I trying to go through all of this trouble? What is the point? What is my end-game and what is the long term plan?

To answer those fairly quickly:

  • I want to look good.
  • The point is to look good after having a baby.
  • The end game is to look good.
  • The long term plan is to look good.

 

See the problem?

I am so focused on wanting to look good that I am completely ignoring all of the OTHER things (and frankly, more important things) my body can do.

Before I get a bunch of  “I told you so’s” hear me out.

It is ingrained in us to like what we see. We want people to like what they see when they look at us. And that’s not a bad thing some times. What IS a bad thing is when the focus and the priority of your day is looking good. I will be the first to admit that, over the past few weeks, that has been my focus. I still go through my daily routine and I completed the tasks I need to complete. I’m a good wife and a good mom. Outside of those priorities, though, my brain was 100% focused on what I could do to look better. I hated my body.

In church today, I was thinking about the past couple weeks and how I’ve just been bummed out and depressed because of my lack of progress. That’s when I got hit like a ton of bricks.

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Me hating my body is telling God that I hate the body he gave me. It’s me saying the work he did to create me before I was even a thought is worthless and garbage. I am made in His image and hating my own body is like hating Him. Let that kick you in the gut for a minute.

It would be like someone painting a piece of art specifically for you just for you to focus all day on the fact that you hate it. In reality, it’s a piece of art that was wonderfully made. It’s made up of all the same things as other paintings- paint, canvas, brush strokes- but it has a different look that is totally it’s own and it is beautiful.

Truth be told, the body I have is NOT garbage. My body can do amazing things. I can run, jump, squat, press, and climb. It carried, grew, and kept a baby alive before it brought that baby into the world. It can run on no sleep efficiently and it can recharge when it needs to. Does it look the way I would like it to? No. And I don’t think it ever will. But I am learning that that’s ok. I am NOT an elite athlete or a physique or bikini competitor. I don’t model. I don’t have a job that requires me to look a certain way so I don’t need to look the way the way people who have those jobs do.

All of this being said, being happy with my body is not an excuse to not take care of it. I was given this body for a reason, so I need to take care of it the best I can. In my case, that does mean I need to lose a few pounds. Those pounds don’t have to be gone overnight, however. I don’t need to do anything crazy to lose that weight. I don’t need to spend hours at the gym or count my calories or be strict on my macros. Those things will make me look good, but how long can I actually keep that up? 1 month? 6 months? 1 year? Certainly not forever. All I need to do is find balance. Make healthy choices. Stay active. Go back to basics. Those things can be made into lifelong habits.

 

I have been counting calories/macros for 5 years. 5 YEARS. I know what’s good for me and what isn’t. I know healthy habits. I just need to put them into practice. That’s why, macros and calorie counting, I think we need a break.


Christmas Recap! Family / Fitness / Life

I haven’t updated recently because we went on vacation to visit my family for Christmas! We drove up on Tuesday morning and stayed until yesterday morning.

The drive to Atlanta was long and boring. I made sure to pack some healthy snacks, though! I packed some Powercrunch bars, chocolate rice cakes, and peanut butter. It’s really easy to eat poorly while on the road so it’s important to plan ahead!

Once we got settled at my parents house, we went to Atlantic Station to go ice skating. I didn’t skate because I had M in her wrap, but it was still so fun watching my dad and sisters skate! After skating, we went to a restaurant called Yard House and it was amazing! I loved all the different food options. There were so many different combinations of flavors that I hadn’t seen before. I wanted to try one of everything! We all split a few appetizers and I got a pastrami benedict burger (yes, that is as good as it sounds!).

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Wednesday morning I went to the gym with my mom and we worked shoulders and back with her trainer. After the gym, we spent Wednesday lounging around and taking family photos. I also went to Target to pick up a last minute Christmas Eve dress for M. The one I brought was too small. She’s getting so big! On Thursday, Mike and I went to the YMCA and played racquetball and it was so much fun! We were there for an hour and had such a great time! Racquetball is a great workout.  We spent the rest of the day relaxing before going to Waffle House for dinner- a tradition- and going to the 11pm Christmas Eve service at my parents church.

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Christmas Day was a blast as well! We opened presents and had a delicious meal. I got a lot of great gifts! One of my favorite gifts was from my sister. She knows that I’ve really been enjoying cooking lately so she got me some cookbooks with a bunch of healthy, simple recipes. I can’t wait to start trying some of them this week! Side note: how cute is M!?!

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We spent Friday and Saturday lounging around the house (are you sensing a theme here?). Mike and I went to the YMCA again on Saturday to play racquetball again and had a ton of fun. I also worked legs that day. We also met up with my friend Becca for brunch and my friend Meghan for dinner! I hadn’t seen either of them in almost a year so it was awesome to catch up!

On Sunday, we relaxed, went to Trader Joe’s, went to a family friends house for an engagement party, then Monday we drove home!

We had such a good trip. I don’t see my family very often usually, so it was nice to spend some time with them. I’ve seen them more this year than the past few years combined, mostly due to M being born. Now that everything has settled down, I’m not sure when I’ll see them next. Life is kind of starting back up again with me going back to work next week (more on that at another time) so it will be interesting to see how and where things fall into place.

What did you do during the holiday vacation?

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Pre-Christmas Workouts and Fruit Water Fitness

I can’t believe Christmas is next week! One on hand, I’m excited! I love Christmas time. It’s my favorite time of year, handsdown. On the other hand, I’m dreading it. Christmas means my maternity leave is coming to an end and I have to go back to work. I have been leaving Maddie at daycare for half days a few days this week to “wean” myself off of her, but I’m still really anxious about being away from her all day.

Anyways, this week I’ve made sure to get in some good workouts since Christmas always brings yummy treats!

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I’ve added weights back into my workouts and I have been SO sore! I’m a little weakling right now because I haven’t lifted in so long, but I’m looking forward to seeing progress (and being less sore)!

I’ve also been on Pinterest a lot more lately and I was inspired to try making my own fruit infused water! It looks so pretty so I thought I’d try it out with what I had on hand!

fruit infused water The first one is made with sliced apples, cinnamon sticks, and some cinnamon honey I got from Savannah Bee Company. I wasn’t sure how it would taste since I didn’t know how much the apples would flavor the water, but it’s surprisingly good! Very smooth with some sweetness and a hint of cinnamon. It’s also very festive!

The second one is made with pineapple, honeydew, honey, and a little lime juice. It is much sweeter than the apple cinnamon one but it’s really good! I can’t wait to try more flavor combinations! I really want to do something with cucumber, raspberry, and mint.

 

 

 


2015 Keeping Carrie Fit Holiday Gift Guide Fitness

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These are a few of my favorite things!

The holiday season is here and you may be scrambling to get someone a last minute gift. My holiday gift guide is here to help! Help your loved ones kick off the new year in style with these fun gifts that will make fitness in 2016 a blast!

holiday fitness gift guide

Fitbit
Fitbits have been at the forefront of fitness tracking over the past few years.
The Fitbit Charge HR is one of the more popular Fitbits out there. It has a display that shows steps, flights of stairs, heart rate, and other outputs that make tracking daily fitness easy.

The Fitbit Surge is a larger Fitbit that has a bigger face. It also tracks steps, flights of stairs, and heart rate.

The Fitbit Flex is a smaller Fitbit that shows dots that indicate the steps you’ve taken.

Any of them are sure to be helpful to any friend or family member that is looking to track their fitness!

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Simple Cleansing Facial Wipes
Get that sweat off your face with these cleansing wipes! I use these every day for make up removal and I LOVE them. They’re great for sensitive skin and they don’t leave your skin dry or greasy. These are perfect for a stocking stuffer!

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EOS Organic Lip Balm
This lip balm is fantastic! There are so many different flavors and the packaging makes it easy to apply. Another great stocking stuffer!

holiday fitness gift guide

Asics GT 2000
These are the shoes I’ve been wearing this year. I’ve loved them! Asics are my shoe of choice by far.

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Adult Coloring Book
Not in the naughty sense, but in the complicated sense. Adult coloring books have taken off this year, and for good reason! I loved these when I was in the hospital. It passes the time and it is great for stress relief! I know people who will color for 15 minutes before bed to wind down. They come in all kinds of themes! I love this particular book because there is a lot of variety, but there are tons of others! They even have a Game of Thrones one!

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Stabilo 88 25ct colored pens
These are my favorite pens for hand lettering and for coloring in my coloring book. They are inexpensive, good quality, and come in tons of colors! If you opt for a coloring book as a stocking stuffer, these pens are the perfect addition!

Bonus: All of these items are available through Amazon prime. 2 day shipping for the win!

What are some of your favorite things?

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Back to the Basics Fitness

After being cleared to exercise last Monday, I was so excited to get back to a consistent workout routine! I told my husband that he needed to be ready to watch M when he got home because I was going to the gym. He came home, I got ready to go, hopped onto the treadmill and… walked. I seriously underestimated how hard exercise would be. I ran a little bit but most of my workout was a walk. I did 2 miles in 35 minutes- by far my slowest time ever.

On Thanksgiving, I went to the park to meet up with my running buddy! We hadn’t run together since March. We ran (mostly walked) a 5k and finished in 50 minutes- my slowest 5k to date.

On Sunday, I went back to the gym and ran another 2 miles. I finished in 31 minutes. An improvement from my first run, but still slow.

At first, I was incredibly let down by my times. I ran half marathons! I have a 25 minute 5k PR. The only reason I walk during runs is if I’m cramped. Being slow is uncharacteristic of me. On top of all that, I felt self conscious because of the way I look. I was exercising in a big baggy shirt because all my shirts are either too tight or they don’t conceal the acne that has taken over my shoulders and back (thanks, Post Partum hormones!). I won’t lie, it reminded me of when I first started to get healthy and that made me feel horrible. I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been and I’m out of shape. It’s frustrating! After throwing myself a pity party, I snapped back to reality. I just had a baby. I had a hard pregnancy. For months, I wasn’t able to be on my feet for more than 10 minutes, much less workout. Of course my body won’t be able to perform the way it did when I was in my best shape! What I needed to do was get back to the basics. I need to rebuild my endurance the same way I did before: one baby step at a time.

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Am I super excited about basically starting over? No. But I know so much more now that I can apply my knowledge to this weight loss “season” and come back in even better shape! There are still times that I feel terrible about how I look and how I feel, but I’m doing my best to make sure to keep that negative self-talk to a minimum. The fact that I’m working on getting back into shape is a win!


Things They Don’t Tell You || Pregnancy Life

Pregnancy is an amazing time in life. It’s pretty amazing that the human body can grow another human in 10 months. Looking back, it’s insane to me that the 3mm dot we saw on an ultrasound screen back in March grew to be my Maddie.

You hear about all the joys of pregnancy often. An adorable belly, little kicks from the inside, longer hair (thanks, prenatals!), funny cravings… but there are so many things that I wish someone had warned me about! From pregnancy things I didn’t know about to parenting things I wasn’t told- there are so many things I wish I had been clued in on! I wanted to share some of those things in a series of posts.

Today: Things They Don’t Tell You || Pregnancy

  1. Morning sickness isn’t just for mornings
    Morning sickness, lunch time sickness, afternoon, evening, and night time sickness. It’s just sickness. For me, I felt sick every morning and every afternoon as soon as I’d get home from work. Like clockwork. What can you do to help? Ginger ale, ginger tea (Yogi makes a great ginger tea- very strong, though!), sour candies, saltines…all can help. If you want to go the medicine route, unisom and vitamin b6 works well for many women. You can also talk to your doctor about taking Zofran or another anti-nausea medication if you’re really sick.
  2. You won’t get many ultrasounds
    Going into pregnancy, you may think you’ll get ultrasounds often. Not the case! The majority of your appointments won’t last more than 15 minutes. Ultrasounds are most common on your first visit (to see the tiny little dot that is your baby), your anatomy scan (to make sure all organs are growing right- and to find out the sex!), and to measure growth at the end of your pregnancy. While this can be a bummer, it’s a good thing! Ultrasounds are only common practice if there’s some sort of issue that needs to be monitored. Most of the time, if you don’t have many ultrasounds, you’re considered low risk- a good thing!
  3. Aches and pains are common
    And it’s ok to call your OB about them! Cramping can be a common occurance which is a scary thing. Constipation causes incredible pain and I’d be lying if I said I didn’t call my OB due to that. It can be scary but, most of the time, minor cramping and pain here and there are totally normal. Keep in mind that your insides are being pushed and squeezed into new locations to make room for your baby!
  4. Panty liners are necessary
    You won’t get your period while pregnant, but you may lose some control of your bladder. Plan accordingly and you can laugh about it later.
  5. The last months are horrible.
    First trimester is notorious for being hard. Morning sickness is common and it’s the most common time for complications. It’s hard physically and emotionally. What no one tells you is that the last trimester can be equally as challenging. Sleep becomes impossible. Rolling out of bed is a workout. You will ache in places you never thought possible. If you make it to your due date, or even a week before, the waiting game can take a toll on you emotionally as well. Was that pain a labor pain? Was that leak my water breaking? There are so many things that mess with your head (so I’ve heard since I didn’t make it that far).What can you do? First, grab yourself some Unisom and get some sleep. Talk to your OB first, but I was told by my OB that Unisom tabs (not gels!) are safe when pregnant. If you don’t want to take a pharmaceutical, try natural solutions like sleepy time tea or melatonin- as long as you’ve cleared whatever you’re taking with your OB or midwife. If the waiting game is causing you stress and anxiety, talk to your doctor. He or she may be able to offer resources to help you and they may be willing to talk to you about scheduling an induction date. While most doctors prefer the baby makes his or her appearance on its own, sometimes the stress of waiting can be bad enough that it’s just better to induce. Induction doesn’t always mean pitocin! There are different things that can be used to induce labor. In my experience, this generally doesn’t happen until after a woman’s due date, but it’s still something to keep in mind should you start to have serious anxiety about labor.

Those are a few things I wish I’d known about pregnancy. If you’ve been pregnant, what are some things you’d add to this list?

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