After being cleared to exercise last Monday, I was so excited to get back to a consistent workout routine! I told my husband that he needed to be ready to watch M when he got home because I was going to the gym. He came home, I got ready to go, hopped onto the treadmill and… walked. I seriously underestimated how hard exercise would be. I ran a little bit but most of my workout was a walk. I did 2 miles in 35 minutes- by far my slowest time ever.
On Thanksgiving, I went to the park to meet up with my running buddy! We hadn’t run together since March. We ran (mostly walked) a 5k and finished in 50 minutes- my slowest 5k to date.
On Sunday, I went back to the gym and ran another 2 miles. I finished in 31 minutes. An improvement from my first run, but still slow.
At first, I was incredibly let down by my times. I ran half marathons! I have a 25 minute 5k PR. The only reason I walk during runs is if I’m cramped. Being slow is uncharacteristic of me. On top of all that, I felt self conscious because of the way I look. I was exercising in a big baggy shirt because all my shirts are either too tight or they don’t conceal the acne that has taken over my shoulders and back (thanks, Post Partum hormones!). I won’t lie, it reminded me of when I first started to get healthy and that made me feel horrible. I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been and I’m out of shape. It’s frustrating! After throwing myself a pity party, I snapped back to reality. I just had a baby. I had a hard pregnancy. For months, I wasn’t able to be on my feet for more than 10 minutes, much less workout. Of course my body won’t be able to perform the way it did when I was in my best shape! What I needed to do was get back to the basics. I need to rebuild my endurance the same way I did before: one baby step at a time.
Am I super excited about basically starting over? No. But I know so much more now that I can apply my knowledge to this weight loss “season” and come back in even better shape! There are still times that I feel terrible about how I look and how I feel, but I’m doing my best to make sure to keep that negative self-talk to a minimum. The fact that I’m working on getting back into shape is a win!